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Sweater, tts wearing size M: https://bit.ly/2yoTriq
Skirt, tts wearing size 8: https://bit.ly/2NlL3tD
As long as she wants me to hold her I am going to do my best to do that. I know one day she won't want me to hold her and will not want anything to do with me. Until then I will savor each of these moments as if it is the last time. I don't know about you but once I became a mom I developed a greater understanding of unconditional love, patience, and learning, not only my learning but the learning of a child. Every day I see Bree learning something new, saying or singing something new and it boggles my mind how much she has grown it was feels like such a short time. It really is true that kids are like sponges because Bree is repeating things that I didn't even think she heard.
Patience is something I struggle with. I love my child to pieces but at the same time she can zap my strength and I have to sit back and remind myself I need to be patient with her because at 2 years old she is still trying to figure out this world and her place in it. Sometimes that figuring out is when I am also trying to fulfill 2000 other responsibilities I have for the day. Mommin' is hard!
At the end of the day, My love for her is so strong. I can't be mad at her for more than 5 seconds sometimes. She makes me laugh more than anyone else can. She makes me feel affectionate when some days I don't want to touch anyone. I feel like my purpose has been found and my world has been complete because of her. No matter the struggles I feel or is thrown at me, at the end of the day the one thing that makes me truly is happy my child and every part of her. The thinking, growing, following, doing, crying, screaming, laughing child. Sometimes I need to take a step back and remind myself of this during those moment where I want to rip my hair out, and for any of the other mommies that feel like ripping their hair out, well, it is ok. We are all just people. We are all imperfect in our ways and are all learning and growing. It is normal to lose your cool. It is normal to feel overwhelmed and tell your kid "no" when they want to read a book or play with you. Yes those moments are important, but kids are also learning when you tell them no. They are learning there are boundaries. They are learning that there are times for work and times for play. They are learning independence and hard work and they are learning that in order to fully enjoy the play time you have to have work time. There are many times I have to tell Bree no mommy can't read right now but I can when I am done with this, or yes we can play with this but first we need to do that, etc....Eventually our child will learn when some things are a good time and some things are a bad time.
And if you ever need someone to vent to...YOU AREN'T ALONE!! I am here for you girlfriend!