So Bree started "school a" today. Ok it's not really school but 1 day a week (half day basically) of play time and activities in a day care setting. It is at a local church called "Parent's Day Out". Normally my father in law watches Bree 4 days a week but we wanted to give him a break as well as bring Bree into a socialization setting. Bree isn't really around other kids much. We wanted to get her around other kids and be able to just have a different environment. This is a great program because it is also very reasonably priced. Paying $100/day for a day care setting is just not in our budget right now. We saw the program on Friday for the first time so we could meet the instructor, see the set up, and see how Bree does in the environment. Bree loved all the slides and liked the instructor enough that she asked to get picked up by her. I felt secure that this is a good place.
Today was the start! I was and have been super excited for her to go to this, but also part of me was feeling nervous. How would she do? Would she behave? Will she have fun and try to play with the other kids? Someone I don't really know will be changing my kid's diaper? Aaahhhhh!! So many thoughts run through your head as a parent. She is only 2 so she cannot tell me if someone did something they aren't supposed to. At this point she also doesn't understand what is right and wrong anyways. I also know I can't live in complete fear or make Bree feel like she needs to be fearful. I want her to go through life being cautious and careful but not always afraid. Who wants to live afraid all the time?
Back over a month ago we bought a Peppa Pig backpack for the occasion. I understand Bree won't be having books to bring home but there are a few things she will need to carry like a change in clothes, change in shoes, diapers, wipes, and her lunch. Plus Bree likes the backpack and getting to carry it for school so I bought it. She liked having it on her back.
As you can see, Bree walked into the school with such excitement! Bree recognized the place as we were entering. When we walked in, she knew exactly where to go. She immediately went to the toys are started playing. No crying or anxiety about me leaving but still able to come give me hug and kiss goodbye. I was allowed to text the instructor to check on Bree during the day. Part of me wanted to but the other part felt that I needed to try to trust, needed to let go a bit because one day when she goes to regular school I won't be able to text the teacher about how Bree is doing. I was naturally very excited for 1pm to come so I can go pick her up!
She did so good today! She has to work on sharing (but so does every kid at the age of 2). She looked exhausted from playing so hard. She did great at her activity and made a tree out of her hand! Now I understand the sappiness of homemade art from your kids. This picture is so precious to me it's as if it is made out of real gold. These moments are truly precious but also bittersweet. As she grows I have the excitement of watching her learn and do new things but also know she is getting closer to the day when she will fly the nest and not need me as much. I am trying to hold on to as much childhood as I can. She just went to her first day of "school" and will never have a very first day of school again. She will have a first day of a certain grade but this day came and gone.
Please stop growing little one....