Have you heard Thomas Rhett's new single that is out "Remember you young"? It is so beautiful and a total tear jerker. Well this post is not about that song, but it really did have me thinking especially today as my daughter turns 3 years old. In the scheme of things, 3 years is not a long time but yet it feels like she has been in my life for an eternity. I can barely remember what life was like before Bree entered our lives. It is so true that time can go in a blink of an eye. Times from when she was a newborn or after turning 1 is barely present without watching videos and looking at pictures that were taken. One thing is for sure though that even as she gets older, I will still remember her as my little baby.
I will say there are some aspects of these "terrible two's" that I will not miss. I will not miss the tantrums. The tantrums started about halfway through the two's. They usually come in the form of screaming as loud as she can, throwing things, kicking things and sometimes that kicking hits one of us. There are many reasons why this could be brought on but usually it is because she is told no to something. It is enough to really have me lose my cool.
I will not miss the games. Usually this presents itself when she is told no or when she has a tantrum. Usually it goes something like this. "Bree, clean your toys up or I am taking them away." "Take them away." "Bree, stop it or you are going into your room." "I want to go in my room"...goes in her room...screaming ensues "I don't want to go to bed" "Bree, Are you ready to listen?" "No I don't want to listen." "Well you can get out of your bed when you are ready to listen." "I don't want to get out of my bed."...more screaming and the cycle continues..... It is enough to tear my hair out.
I will not miss the messes. Why is it that toddler feel they need to dump all their toys at once in order to play. I also love when they complain about tripping over stuff, hurting themselves or not having space. Durrrrrrr.......
As she gets older, there are several things I will for sure miss that I know will one day go away.I will miss the cuddles. I know one day Bree will not want to lay next to me, will not want to cuddle next to me and have these moments where I can just hold her. I will miss being able to rock her at night and have her lay on me and sing to her. These are moments I will always cherish.
I will miss the affection. There are many times she comes up to me and will just give me a kiss or a hug. I know one day when she will be an angry teenager and not want to be around me and definitely will not want hugs or kisses. When now all I want to do is smother her in hugs and kisses (maybe not as much as when she is having her tantrums) I love these moments.
I will miss the excitement. This is the that excitement of learning something new. This is the excitement of getting something new even if that is something small like a lollipop. It is the general excitement in live that comes with being a kid. It not only brings me joy but inspires me to live life a little more filled with that excitement.
In the end, I know being a parent is difficult. It is one of the most challenging responsibilities I have ever had. Bree did not come with a manual. Outside of all the challenges it is still the most rewarding experience. As much as I want to pull my hair out on the regular, I will still always miss her and think of her as being young.